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I did it because I regarded her treatment of my suit as insolent.
I have no mercy for any such display of intolerance on the part of
the rich and the fortunate. I hated her for it; I hated her class,
herself and all she stood for. To strike the dealer of such a hurt
I felt to be my right. Though a man of small beginnings and of a
stock which such as you call common, I have a pride which few of
your blood can equal. I could not work, or sleep or eat with such
a sting in my breast as she had planted there. To rid myself of it,
I determined to kill her, and I did. How? Oh, that was easy,
though it has proved a great stumbling-block to the detectives, as I
knew it would! I shot her - but not with an ordinary bullet. My
charge was a small icicle made deliberately for the purpose. It
had strength enough to penetrate, but it left no trace behind it.
'A bullet of ice for a heart of ice,' I had said in the torment
of my rage. But the word was without knowledge, Mr. Challoner. I
see it now; I have seen it for two whole weeks. I did not misjudge
her condemnation of me, but I misjudged its cause. It was not to
the comparatively poor, the comparatively obscure man she sought to
show contempt, but to the brother of Oswald whose claims she saw
insulted. A woman I should have respected, not killed. A woman of
no pride of station; a woman who loved a man not only of my own
class but of my own blood - a woman, to avenge whose unmerited
death I stand here before you a self-condemned criminal. That is
but justice, Mr. Challoner. That is the way I look at things.
Though no sentimentalist; and dead to all beliefs save the eternal
truths of science, I have that in me which will not let me profit,
now that I know myself unworthy, by the great success I have earned.
Hence this confession, Mr. Challoner. It has not come easily, nor
do I shut my eyes in the least to the results which must follow.
But I can not do differently. To-morrow, you may telegraph to New
York. Till then I desire to be left undisturbed. I have many
things to dispose of in the interim."
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