"I suppose I should let go if I had.
"You know," he went on, "this doesn't seem to me to end anything.
I'm rather a persistent person. I'm the sort of dog, if you turn
it out of the room it lies down on the mat at the door. I'm not
a lovesick boy. I'm a man, and I know what I mean. It's a
tremendous blow, of course--but it doesn't kill me. And the
situation it makes!--the situation!"
Thus Manning, egotistical, inconsecutive, unreal. And Ann
Veronica walked beside him, trying in vain to soften her heart to
him by the thought of how she had ill-used him, and all the time,
as her feet and mind grew weary together, rejoicing more and more
that at the cost of this one interminable walk she escaped the
prospect of--what was it?--"Ten thousand days, ten thousand
nights" in his company. Whatever happened she need never return
to that possibility.
"For me," Manning went on, "this isn't final. In a sense it
alters nothing. I shall still wear your favor--even if it is a
stolen and forbidden favor--in my casque. . . . I shall still
believe in you. Trust you."
He repeated several times that he would trust her, though it
remained obscure just exactly where the trust came in.
"Look here," he cried out of a silence, with a sudden flash of
understanding, "did you mean to throw me over when you came out
with me this afternoon?"
Ann Veronica hesitated, and with a startled mind realized the
truth. "No," she answered, reluctantly.
"Very well," said Manning. "Then I don't take this as final.
That's all. I've bored you or something. . . . You think you
love this other man! No doubt you do love him. Before you have
lived--"
He became darkly prophetic. He thrust out a rhetorical hand.
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